Nonexistence, the feeling of nothingness 

Numb and gone, the answer to my questions

Let go of it all or burn up in rage

Choosing to lose my self in the meaningless 

Choosing to give it all up

Needing it all and knowing it will never be

Closing the wound with the disposable

Healing the hurt with poison

This is all I have left

All I can do

Hold on and keep going

What to do when one is already dead

What to do when nothing is left

I'm blindfolded

Talk and I'm not listening

I've forgotten every book I've read

If grace knows my name

Then I'm the one to blame

Always spreading my fear and shame

My tongue can not be trusted

Like a black widow's kiss

The proof was not fool proof

I walk around blindfolded, but you never see me move

Never should have listened to that serpent

Shot my self in the foot again

She's never gonna touch you no more

My face looks jaded

If you haven't been tested

You will, and I promise it's gonna kill

Keep walking on my friend

The last real thing

My life is dull

Dried up like the voice of a cold heart

Maybe I'm out of luck

Or maybe I'm just blind

Rain on my hopes

Rain on my soul

The pursuit of a dream

I'd thought I'd be on today

Let me be you're doomsayer and show you everything

Everything, you'll never see

The crushing weight

It's relentless pull

Countless experiences, diluted to nothing

You're not alone

Let me be you're doomsayer

Let me show you everything you'll never see

Stopped living with that crash and burn longing

Will it ever pass?

It brings me to my knees

Reliving that same nightmare where you realize

No one can save you

It signifies your disgust

I watched it rise and fall

The dream where I stop living in the past

Who can save me?

Look in the mirror

It doesn't phase me

I try to tell myself that it's worth more than this

Let me take it all back I'd rather die than live with your disgust or pity

It's a spit in the face

Don't even try to explain

As these buildings crumble around me I call out and if you hear me

Come let me out

Oh, please break me free

It's all a game to you

Dark will be the day when I no longer elude

Elude their hungers and desires

So don't give up on me

We can still pretend

It's only a game

It'll work it self out in the end

Those solemn words whispered through a haze

Can you even see me?

Wrapped in insecurities that won't stop spilling around me

These haunting consequences

Leaving their spoiled taste in my mouth

Left to work it out alone

This is the closing of the day

Please forgive me

I will never forget